On eating disorders

As a recipe developer and food writer, I’m often asked the same question: “How do you stay thin and fit when you’re constantly making so many rich and decadent meals and desserts?”

I should be flattered, graciously accepting these words as the well-meaning compliments for which they were intended, but the truth is, my stomach churns every time I hear this question.  As someone who struggled with anorexia for years, I saw myself as neither fit nor thin, and still, to this day fight to see beyond my imperfections.  When the question is posed, I’m overcome by waves of guilt.  As if, by being labeled fit or thin, I am somehow unworthy of writing recipes or cooking; I’m somehow being dishonest with the world and with myself.  You know the saying, “Never trust a thin cook.” Continue reading “On eating disorders”